As a highly sensitive person, it is always a challenge to go to a concert. So many people in one room, so many different energies, loud music. But hey, I hold on, even though everything flows through me.
Yesterday it was particularly noticeable. Suddenly there was this moment when my joy at the concert waned. Sure, it's normal to stand close together at a concert, but then someone sneaked in front of me. And she was even taller than me. Seriously? I was annoyed.
Then he played one of his first songs, "Fear." And boom, my energy dropped. It happened out of nowhere. I fell out of my center. Anger, misunderstanding, sadness, anger, fear - everything was there. I stood there as if petrified. An emotional whirlwind raged inside me. I felt into myself and knew that I could endure this. Whether these were all my emotions or whether I had picked them up from the collective was no longer important. It was just there. I gave it space. I observed it. Even though I was repeatedly drawn into it, I always found the necessary distance to experience it without identifying with it.
Then he played "It Ain't Over Till It's Over" - and that was my catapult back to joy. Arms up, dancing, singing along. A brief thought, should I really, is it safe? Oh yes, open your heart and let joy in, let it flow through you. "I want to get away, I want to fly away, yeah, yeah, yeah!!!!"
What if we open our hearts and allow ourselves to be present in the moment? In the past, I would have completely freaked out. I would have created a drama for myself. I recognized the triggers and opened myself to the feelings raging inside me. They were simply allowed to be there. As a result, they were given space and simply flowed through me.
How often do we close our hearts out of fear of everything possible?
What if we open our hearts and simply embrace what is happening right now?
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